I'm being two face with myself.
I know it's not right but I don't want people to see and know what I'm going through at times. I believe some things are better left unsaid. What I need is patience right now and negativity is what I need to get away from.

It hurts so bad when the people who's close and you love the most doesn't have so much faith like you thought they have in you.
My correction, it kills.

I know my words can be hurtful at times and I can just blurt out stuff that I didn't even realise that it would hurt the other party and for that, I apologise. I don't feel ashamed when someone tells me off in the face that I'm being mean with my words but infact I'm truly am thankful for slapping me hard on the face.

I need to learn to control myself.
I need to be close to every positivity to keep me away from being the person who I don't want to be, mean. I don't want people to judge on me and next thing I know, I lose it all.

I need space.
I need air.
So, leave me alone.