Friday, October 09, 2009

I'm not a Toyboy.

If we have not met that night, my mind would have be free thinking about us. You put me in this difficult situation till now and you blame me for everything. Hey, I didn't mess things up, I told you I wasn't comfortable of us being together and I tried to pull it back, but you insisted.

The reason why I confessed after you poured your heart out on me because I knew something was just not going anywhere for us. You're attached and there I am standing in between. He did nothing wrong and he didn't deserve to be treated the way you did, if I was him, I probably be worst than upset knowing that I got cheated by my own girlfriend. And yes, the fact is I'm at wrong too and I should have walked away.

It took me a while to realise but at least I realised! And when I tried to explained hoping you would understand me, you told me that my life was full with episodes and drama instead. I was trying to help to save your relationship with him but you took me the wrong way. Fine.

You're wrong if you think it's easy for me to pretend and ignore that you're attached still when we were together, I was damn fucked up about it the whole time! I think I know why I got tangled in this stupid 'Love Triangle', you're actually toying around with me. Damn, why was I so stupid to let myself in.. probably because it started with a stupid kiss!

But anyway, I got to thank you. You made me realise what I should be looking forward to for my future relationship. I pray that she won't do the same thing you did to your boyfriend and definitely she would be way better than you. Heartless.

Yes, it's all in the past but I'm still struggling to get out of this shit. Someone, brainwash me please!