I can't stand myself trying to be the person who I'm not. Work has been dreadful and everytime I'm on my way there, I sense something bad gonna happen. I guess I'm not as passionate like I use to be last time.

Honestly, I don't feel anything about the new year like I use to the past years. I can't wait for another six month to end and finally and officially end my time in school and move on. I think 2009 has alot to come. For right now, I'm thrilled for my cousin from London who is getting married this March there and my family are preparing ourselve to be there. Then the scariest part got to be the upcoming competition which is next week. So much things to prepare so little time.

I realise that I've been turning down outings and events that should'nt be missed this year. It also make me feel so left out by all my friends because I rarely meet up with them and hang out so much like they do. I feel pathetic and mundane. Damn, I guess I'm just gonna endure for 6 more months. Anyway, tomorrow, if anyone of you are going to hang out on new year eve, do ask me if I wanna join, I end work at 11pm, so I'll be around Raffles Place area and most probably I could make it for the New Year.

I just miss those carefree days.