Thursday, August 23, 2007

'al dente'




i wonder why everytime when i did a dish for practical, i did it well and got praised after doing it but when come to test, which doing the same thing over again, i failed at certain part.. the feeling just suck and unmotivate me at times.. to say i did it with OVER CONFIDENCE, it's totally crap! i seriously did it with thought and precise but i just don't get it why it must happen when comes to exams and test.. haiz..

example, during secondary school, i kept scoring well for combine humans but during the O level result, i was totally devasted by it. i mean combine humans is one of the subject which i have total interest in it and i studied thoroughly for it, but i just don't get it what went wrong.. and still words from people kept haunting me like one of them said to me,

'what's the point of studying, look, i didn't even studied and now i'm in poly, look at you, haa..'

all i did when that someone said that was to shut up and smile. i felt numbed but i didn't retaliate his words.. ergh.. it's super effing frustrating when it come to my mind.. okay, i'm not gonna fret about it. i guess i'll just do my very best in everything i do. i believe there's always a reason why things happened.

okay, i think i sound emo up there, but i wasn't okay.. just letting out a piece of thought in me.. so today was boring i can say.. i hate doing practical but i like doing it. get it? haa... lecturers have been giving us clues about our test results, i can't think about what i'm going to get. well, i'm hoping at least i can pass them although i didn't study certain part of the chapters. well, there's too many things to do with so little time.. school timetable is jam-pack and everytime when i reach home, i feel super lethargic, so i totally can't balme myself for not studing ryte.. haa...

oaite, i wanna eat dinner. and by the way, i was looking up at the pictures we took during last year teachers day and we played in the rain in school, i miss those time.. can we get wet again together? haahaa!!

solehin