Friday, April 20, 2007





i'm really frustrated, mad, insane, furious and whatever shit!!
where the hell is my SHATEC letter!!
i mean, if i'm not selected for it, can't they like send me a letter saying that i was accepted or not? ergh!!...

another thing that make me even mad is, i'm freaking jobless!
i'm thinking, how am i suppose to support myself when i start schooling.
mum told me that i have to be independent and pay my own expenses
in fact, it's understood that she has to pay my expensive school fees and i don't expect to trouble her anymore.
partly, it's my fault because i only look for limited job and i'm darn lazy to look for other job.
so, i'm angry with myself!

perhaps all those furiousness in me is maybe because i miss schooling life so much.
i miss jotting notes down! i miss everything about school!
damn it..
and i feel bad for myself because i told all of you that i'll be going to shatec although it's not even confirm yet. and IF i don't get in, i'll have to wait for october intake which is very ridiculous!! argh!

ps: i miss you and your smile.

solehin.