Thursday, March 09, 2006

tiring

end school at 6.30pm. kinda having a bad day but i just have to keep a positive mind about everything. some things tried to get into my ways but i tried to get it off my mind. i'm really tired now, my mind is in a mess and nothing could possibly give me life.

im trying to smile and fake my frust about everything. people shock me today, some just sound as if i'm the cause of every problem. why is this perspective point stuck on thier mind? seriously, im really tired to fight back. my studies is like going up to down! i don't know what will i have to say to mum and dad when they knew how bad i did. i'm just by myself i guess. its not that im ego but people reaction around me tells it.

im not trying to be outstanding on everything. i'm just being myself and if people hate it, i just pity them. im just to upset on how i faired for my test. it hurts me sometime to know that my friends did better than me, but all i can do is try to feel that i can do it. i may not be smart and fast in everything but i know i can do.. i just need time.

well, im glad march holidays is right in front and im planning some outing to destress.. i wanna skate, swim and do things that could possibly make me feel good! if things are bad to me, i will make myself feel better!

ergh.. terrible!!

solehinz..
out!